Part 3

Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t all yelling and demanding within the first couple years of our relationship.  Although it felt like there were more bad days then good.  We did share some very happy times and it took me back to the very reason why I feel in love with him.

In those first years, I heard myself being called a “f*%$ing bitch” and “whore” more than in my entire life.  He had no respect for me or my feelings.  The fact that I cheated on Husband #1 with him kept being brought up and how he couldn’t trust me.  I told him if he wasn’t an insecure bastard who treated me like shit, he wouldn’t even worry about that.

In his mind, I screwed everybody-men and women.  It didn’t matter.  Then there came the unusual sex talk.  He has had a facination with me having sex with other guys and watching or both of them doing me in the same session.  I always thought this was just talk to get his rocks off until I found out he started a profile on a married couples website looking for males to join us.

To this day, nobody has been in the bed with us-now who he’s been in bed with behind my back- I just don’t know that.

Part 2

As I soon realized, I screwed up leaving my first marriage.  In my first marriage, I came and went as I pleased, my bills were always paid, I had money to spend and help with my kids. My first husband didn’t say much because he was never home, didn’t like to call and was just to busy with other women.

My second marriage wasn’t like that at all.  I pretty much have to tell where i’m going and what i’m doing.  But it’s ok for husband #2 to go off and do as he pleases while i’m asleep or while he’s at work.  His world is kept a secret and mine is on a platter for him to devour.

I was always a good worker until I got remarried.  I have gotten into trouble at jobs because of his constant presence and smart ass comments.  If I had $10, he would take it and said I owed him.  He would constantly gripe about needing my check book to balance it because he knew I didn’t do it.  This was his way of checking out what I had so he could make plans for it.

Husband #2 also likes to keep in contact-something I was not use to!  Going from no communication to constant communication was depressing and I felt overwhelmed.  Text messages and phone calls-over the years I have broke several cell phones because he has aggrivated me to death.

Husband #2 likes to keep up with his ex’s-he talks about them with his friends and stares at them in my presence and denies it.  I always thought that if you loved someone, they wouldn’t care about their past?

Part 1

I met my husband in the fall of 2004 while volunteering for a local fire department function.  I admit, I was drawn in by his sincere smile and dazzling eyes………he was dreamy.  When I left that evening I didn’t get his cell phone number and so I just waited-until the next fundraiser.  When the next fundraiser came around, he was there and my heart melted.  We exchanged phone numbers and he started visiting me at work.

At the time I was married to an habitual cheater.  For 11 years I put up with being cheated on and finally made the decision to move on.  I thought I had found the perfect person when I meet my second husband.  He said and done all the right things.  But after I left my first husband and was officially divorced, that all changed.